“Because every night I lie down on my bed and and try to relax, it fails. I can’t stop thinking myself of all the wrong sentence I say to the people I meet today. Me, I mean, I, just felt so hard to use my mind on expressing the meaning rather than concerning and assuming they are judging me by my words in any second. And this is so uncomfortable, make me so anxiety even for now when we are talking, I can’t stop making mistake and I am also sweating so hard now, I am sorry.”
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 --------------------A paragraph of what I said to a therapist

This work is a reappearance of the scene(sing) of one part of my daily life. Being a SAD (Social Anxiety Disorder) person and a non-native speaker here, I am always anxious when I am talking to others, concerning that, I will make some grammar mistakes or pronunciation mistakes which might cause misunderstanding. And once it happens, I feel the shame of myself. This self-accusation always breaks out when the night is coming when I am lying down on my bed, try to sleep. All the mistakes I made during the day time will emerge and repeat in my eyes, thus causing my insomnia.

*All the texts in this work are the sentences (with grammar/pronunciation mistakes) selected from a one-day audio that records my daily conversation. A life trace of me could be found within the dialogue.